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Cocktails & Caftans!

Cliffhangers & Cocktails by the Caftan Coven

I was privileged to be interviewed by these two wacky writer witches, and it was pure joy. Go and check out their podcast! I reckon it’s on YouTube, too…

First trip out of the house this year!

Tomorrow is really the first “normal” Monday of 2025, and we just paid a ridiculous amount of money to have our driveway shoveled, so the obvious agenda for today was LEAVING the Treehouse!

We made two stops! One for food, and the other for…food. You can’t go to the grocery store hungry, after all, unless the grocery store has an appealing restaurant within. Ours does not, so we indulged in a little Panera, then we were off to Big Kroger!

How quickly one forgets how tiring the grocery store is! It doesn’t help that I have basically been living in pajamas since New Year’s Eve.

It’s been a very productive time, though. I have worked every day of the year except for today. Tim has been working on his projects, too. It has been bliss! I love being on a roll.

Tomorrow I will have to run some errands, but I think it will be relatively quick on my other “car”:

Felt cute, might zip down to the Witchy Bookstore later. The author is riding her double broom in front of a witchy bookstore in a fantasy environment.
Felt cute, might zip down to the Witchy Bookstore later.

Happy New Year, all! Hope it’s magical!

Spirit Animals

Cozy Kittens & Animal Symbolism

This morning–just a moment ago–I was visited by another of my spirit animals. It was a cozy kitten. Not too surprising, considering the eight inches of snow that fell overnight. Nestle in, settle down, and rest. Keep warm. I know what she wants.

A log in the shape of a sleeping kitten, with a light layer of snow on top of the kitten, and a serene expression. The kitten shape is on its side. The kitten carving is realistic.

They’re never this detailed in real life, but it was something like this. ^

It isn’t the first and hopefully it won’t be the last of my forest visions, even though we plan to sell The Treehouse this year and move. Over the years here through the seasons of bare trees and myriad branches, I have been visited by bears, roosters, whole words spelled out in English, squirrels…I’m searching my brain to try and remember what else…and today, a kitten.

When I first starting “seeing things” in the woods, I would do a double-take. Wait. Was that? No…

Then later in the same day, the same reaction.

The first time one came to visit, I took a few days before mentioning it to Tim. “There’s a bear out there,” I told him.

“Oh, yeah?”

“I mean, obviously not a real bear, but every time I look out there, I keep seeing this bear…that isn’t there…”

Tim believes strongly in the symbolism of wild animals, so we looked up the meaning of the bear. In my case, it was a young bear. Not a baby cub, but not an adult.

Here is where the trouble starts. Where do you look up something so personal?

Appropriation or Not?

In American culture, spirit animals are seen as Native American / First Nations / Indigenous property. There is a well-meaning rapid response from some people to assume any yt person who sees an animal spirit must be appropriating Indigenous culture.

Even if they’re not.

I have kept this thought on the back burner for the past few years, because something this personal that doesn’t affect many others isn’t worth diving into, lest one sound too defensive, and thereby, insincere in one’s beliefs. As fortune would have it, however, I have made some rich cultural discoveries among my own heritage. I wasn’t looking for this information, but there it was.

The Cunning Folk

See, I am a Cunningham.

If you know anything of the Cunning Folk, then you may know what that means. If you have read anything by Scott Cunningham, then you might have a hunch regarding the cultural connection. It’s not popular knowledge, sadly, but my Celtic / Gaelic / Scots / Pagan ancestors from all over the British Isles used animal symbolism in their way of life. They were aware of animals, just like human beings on this continent. They saw qualities in animals similar to every other culture on this earth.

Consider: all over the world, a bear is a symbol of strength. A tortoise is a symbol of patience. A serpent is a symbol of evil. If you’d like to read a quick article about other international animal symbols, here’s a little from the International Fund for Animal Welfare (IFAW).

In any culture that is aware of and values animals, there are going to be connections between these animals and the human psyche. That is how humans were designed. We learn from our environment.

We don’t just assign symbols to animals. We assign them to trees, flowers, homes, cars…Think of those horrible cyber trucks! What do they symbolize to you? What does a douche symbolize? A handgun?

Symbols are an unconscious language all their own. This is the language of tarot, of painters, of poets. It is the soul’s communication with the eye.

When I see my spirit animals, I do not think, “I have learned this from the Native Americans who once tended these woods.” I just see them–and the more I see, the better I understand them. I don’t try to see anything–they always surprise me.

The ironic thing about being a yt American is that we do live on formerly indigenous territory. As Tim pointed out to me once, Native Americans could have seen animals here in these woods, as well. Maybe not a kitten, but maybe a bobcat or a Puma. Firsthand accounts of people who lived right here in these woods might not exist. But, if you’re curious, these are the tribes historically associated with the spot where I live:

list of indigenous cultures that have owned the land where I currently live: 
𐓏𐒰𐓓𐒰𐓓𐒷 𐒼𐓂𐓊𐒻 𐓆𐒻𐒿𐒷 𐓀𐒰^𐓓𐒰^(Osage) 
Shawandasse Tula (Shawanwaki/Shawnee) 
Hopewell Culture 
Adena Culture 
Kaskaskia 
Myaamia
𐓏𐒰𐓓𐒰𐓓𐒷 𐒼𐓂𐓊𐒻 𐓆𐒻𐒿𐒷 𐓀𐒰^𐓓𐒰^(Osage)
Shawandasse Tula (Shawanwaki/Shawnee)
Hopewell Culture
Adena Culture
Kaskaskia
Myaamia

The internet says that these cultures believe in spirit animals, but that doesn’t mean that’s why I am seeing them. We can have separate, but overlapping experiences. That is okay!

I do believe that the commonality of human experience is a good thing. It helps us relate to one another. And for marginalized cultures, it helps them be SEEN. I respect other cultures and find them fascinating. If you find this intriguing, then you can look up these cultures and learn as much as you can about their beliefs, if they allow that (some tribes prefer to not be your spiritual entertainment, and that’s totally understandable!) But, appreciation of things we have in common? Yes. You can do that. You can honor things and not appropriate them as your own. There’s a balance there that sane folk have no trouble keeping–mostly because they are not trying to find meaning in their lives through copying and pasting traditions. They are just living.

To that end, fairies, pixies, and sprites are traditionally thought of as a white cultural fantasy beings. Celtic legends and pagan tales tell of Fairy Trees and the little people. Did you know that American Indian tribes also have tales of “little people” and beings similar to fairies and brownies?

Is that appropriation? No way. I believe it’s being a human being with eyes and a heart.

Just because you haven’t heard of spirit animals or animal spirits or forest ghosts or tiny little fairy people in other cultures doesn’t mean they haven’t existed. It just means YOU haven’t heard of them.

I can’t unsee my snow kitten, and I don’t want to. I want to love it, and I want to cherish this gift of being my intuitive self. I hope you have intuitive gifts of your own to cherish–and if you do, don’t feel like you’re not allowed. You can’t call dibs on “animals.” Nobody owns the wild.

The New Weird

I wrote a little about spirit animals in The New Weird. Chapter Thirteen is titled Seeing the Forest for the Trees: Treemancy and Spirit Animals.

At the end of of every chapter of The New Weird, I gave the reader Journaling Prompts. Yep, it’s an interactive kind of book! There’s even a paperback version if you want to use it that way.

Here are the prompts from the end of Chapter Thirteen: Seeing the Forest for the Trees: Treemancy and Spirit Animals:

1.) Have you ever seen shapes in things where no design was intended? What was your first reaction? Surprise? Welcome? Doubt? Were you taught to write off such fantasies as sinful or wrong? What if seeing shapes in the clouds was just an innocent by-product of being a human being in a big, beautiful world? Think of a time when you saw something, even though it wasn’t “really” there. Do you cherish that interaction? Did you learn from it?

2.) I live in the woods right now, but I believe that if I were a sea witch or plains witch, I’d see symbols and take meaning in my surroundings, as well. Look around you. Are you in a thriving, living environment? If not, take a walk in the woods or on the beach. What do you see? What do you feel? Is there some place you’d like to vacation, where you feel more connected to the natural world? Perhaps you are *that* sort of girl.

3.) Do you even want to see the future? What if, instead of seeing a future you can’t control, you could better understand your present? Would you feel more at ease to just understand your own self better?

Feel free to answer in the comments, or on your own blog, or in your journal! If you’d like, please drop the link so I can enjoy reading your own reflections!

2025

It’s really here. We’re a quarter way through the century, and it’s disconcerting sometimes how very quickly it all happened.

I’m still a little kid–tall, lean, buck-toothed…my knees constantly skinned and my voice always too loud. I could fall down right now and rip a hole in my jeans on the basketball court. I could dive into a swimming pool and swim the length of it underwater, holding my breath. I could hit the bull’s eye from twice as far as any other kid, and keep on going until they dragged me away from the archery range with a bruised forearm from too much fun. Fifteen cartwheels in a row? Try and stop me.

That’s me, isn’t it? Planning on taking over the world someday…at least a part of it. Teaching folks, reading books, helping people understand things they couldn’t have or wouldn’t have put together on their own. I didn’t want or need to be famous, but a certain amount of professional success was almost certainly on the horizon.

Politics, family issues, and health concerns never entered the picture. As a kid holed away on the floor next to her bed reading fantasy novels and listening to the radio, the future was always some kind of perfect waiting to happen. A technicolor sunset that it would be an uncompromising joy to sail into.

And now it’s 2025? The time when robots or apes or robot apes are supposed to be running the world, I think? So far in the future that I can’t even imagine it, because I will be very old by then, indeed. Very, very old.

And here I sit, my hair still mostly brunette, only about 30% silver according to my new hairdresser. I’m losing weight and improving my work habits, taking more medicine for unimagined ills that I never dreamed would afflict me. I’m writing more than ever, probably, except for the year 2011 when my youngest daughter was a babe-in-arms and didn’t need companionship in the same way she requires it now. Goodness, Tim worked from the office back then, too. He didn’t snore in an easy chair three feet from me, as he does now, nor did he video conference day-in and day-out with other problem solvers, saving the world through one hospital interface at a time.

That first year of selling and publishing fiction seriously, rather than journalism, was so exciting.

2011! So far in the future! My goodness, I’ll be so old by then!

But there I was, homeschooling three little boys who I dearly loved and wanted to only nurture and encourage. Nursing a beautiful daughter–something I never thought I would have. And that first year, I published something like 25 ebooks, I think.

The total now is much higher.

Don’t freak out–not all ebooks are 800 pages long. Some are more like articles or short stories. It really all depends on how long it takes to produce the thing you need to make, really. How many words it takes to teach someone something, to explain the thing they wouldn’t have put together on their own.

Other books are long, sure. And, some are compilations and box sets. I’m published in over a dozen anthologies, and I don’t even count those, because they aren’t on my dashboards. I simply forget to add them in.

So, yeah, in a way, I am doing the thing that I thought I’d do. The fiction aspect of writing is the bigger part of my work these days, and that’s not always as obviously teaching as journalism or non-fiction, or freelance editing and the like. Fiction teaches in different, more subtle ways. If you’re doing it right, people think it’s just entertainment. They don’t realize until weeks, months, or even years past the consumption of the material that they learned something from it–that it changed them somehow, or simply opened their mind to another way of thinking.

And heaven knows that many writers actually have no bloody idea that they’re teaching something to someone else. They’re just trying to make ends meet.

I once told a fellow writer (CD Reiss, if you’re interested) that I thought we all write our truth. We can’t help but write what we know deep down to be true–especially through fiction. I think she agreed with me at the time. She’s an amazing writer–even if you think you’re not into that kind of book, just give one of her books a try. You’ll be glad you did.

But the other side of the coin of writing all that good truthiness is that we live in this ever-changing, chaotic world of the future where nothing is what we thought it would be, and the things that are must be strategically leveraged to attain the next goal–just to survive. I’m not talking about billionaire shit. I’m talking about real life. You need to do X to get Y so your kid can afford Z. Wash, rinse, repeat. In a world like that, every little personal indulgence is so precious. The manicure, the Wild Blueberry White Mocha latte, the new tiny sweater for the dog.

This isn’t the way I thought the future would be. I’m definitely not the person I thought I would be in 2025. The world…well, people say it burns, or that it’s a dumpster, or whatever, but the truth is, it’s just difficult. Human nature has always cycled through its crises, and it will keep doing so long after my generation is forgotten. We make a chain of love, and hopefully it lasts a few years beyond our lifetimes, and what more can you ask for?

Okay, so I hear it now. That^ doesn’t sound like the ten year old who just discovered Piers Anthony. That^ up there sounds like the middle aged mother of four who she became.

I love my life. I love my life and my work. I love my life and my work and my family, even if some of my kids aren’t my biggest fans.

I do my best. I write my truth.

And sometimes, I teach people things, whether I mean to, or not.

(This has been a blog entry a la the days of Xanga and eFairy! If you want to read something lighter, I recommend anything from this page.)

Have an amazing year, and watch out for those robot apes.

a robotic ape full body image with an urban downtown background

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Time to give Thanks

Friends! What a season, huh?

I am preparing to send out a newsletter today, and it includes so many swell tidings! A new audiobook release AND an exclusive very cool giveaway just for Red Tash fans. Just my way of thanking you for reading my cozy fantasy mystery series, even though I have been a very slow writer these past few years.

To that end, I was actually looking through my backlist under my three biggest pen names, and it seems I have had a habit in the past of working in fits and spurts. During a “fit,” I would write, edit, and polish multiple works. I really have gotten on a roll in the past, sometimes for months at a time.

It has been my good fortune to know many writers who are able to work steadily at their careers, but until lately, I have not had the luxury of time for that. In October, however, I believe I found the tipping point. I finally have more time to write, an office of my own, a diagnosis of ADHD and the Rx to match, and a female role model I can relate to professionally, even though she’s younger than me and lives a completely different lifestyle.

Who?

Oh, you know who.

Whenever I feel myself at the crossroads of “Should I goof off?” or “Should I try to work for at least 15 minutes?” I ask myself, “What would Taylor Swift do?”

Go on and laugh if you must, but hear me out. She’s achieved all she has by relentlessly making her art her way, diving deeply into her life experience, and fearlessly sharing with the world. Her talent would not have taken her as far as she has risen were it not for her habit of DOING the thing. And, hey, sometimes she cries in between. Finally, a successful woman who is not afraid to show the world that her sensitivity is NOT a weakness, but an actual requirement of being a human being!

Perfectionism has its place, don’t get me wrong—but it has long discouraged me that women have attempted to hide their inherent womanly tendencies in the pursuit of artistic success. It is so backward! Thank you, Taylor, for showing me the way!

And it’s not just Taylor. I made myself an old fashioned vision board to remind me of where I’m headed, and why. I haven’t had to look at it much, because so far I’ve not gotten myself that far off track, but I will share it here in case you are interested in what my dream looks like in collage form. (I used to teach a journaling & collage class, and BOY do I hope my former students have checked out Pinterest’s new collage function.)

Well, that’s all for now. Make sure you’re on the email list! And happy November. I am grateful for you.

It smells like Failure and Crowdstrike

On July 19th 2024 there was a unexpected impact to all sectors of the economy,
I know this firsthand, as I was on call when this happened, which put me on the front line working to clean up the mess this caused in our Citrix environment. It made for a crazy morning and being bleary eyed from a late night downtime that pushed me to a 22 hour day, and only getting a 2 hour nap before getting a call from our help desk related to this issue at 4 AM.

By then it was determined it was Crowdstrike that was causing the issue, what was the issue Crowdstrike released a standard update to its vulnerability scanner Falcon Sensor that wrecked havoc across three continents, the US, Australia and the UK by causing Microsoft Windows 10 and 11 PC’s to blue-screen. This had an immediate and cascading effect as airlines, shipping ports, government agencies, banks, business unable to process transactions, take online sales, emergency call centers and hospitals slowly grind to a halt.

We were busy as we had multiple tracks of work being done at the same time. We had the analysis of the problem and determining the number of business systems, I.E. backend applications that were affected, and trying to determine how many our of end users’ desktops were impacted.

We had immediate triage going on, as well as health checks of systems to validate they had not been impacted.

All this while members of various teams struggled to access the environment since their PCs / Laptops were also among the causalities of the incident.

It took several hours to understand the scope of the problem, but once it was determined to use our well thought out DR process.
We were able to implement it rather quickly. We were able to return our uses to production by the end of the day, an achievement that shows how all teams pulled together to address this unprecedented problem. It also shows that the investments that were made in our DR environment and procedures showed how critical they can be in a crisis.

I’ve had a couple days to recover, and I have a fresh cup of coffee and I’m thinking about the incident and what the fallout might be.

The Who and What

Let’s start with what is this company, for those who might not know CrowdStrike Holdings, Inc. is an American cybersecurity technology company based in Austin, Texas. It provides cloud workload protection and endpoint security, threat intelligence, and cyberattack response services.

It helped the US Department of Justice to charge five Chinese military hackers with economic cyber espionage against U.S. Corporations, and uncovered the activities of a group connected to Russia’s Federal Security Service that conducted intelligence operations against global targets, primarily in the energy sector.

Crowdstrike went public on the Nasdaq in June 2019 and joined the S&P 500 index in June 2024

Crowdstrikes stock prices followed an inverse curve going lower than more and more recognizable brands/companies reported outages. Microsoft reported that 8.5 Million devices were affected,. Microsoft has released an usb recovery tool that will help quickly recovering impacted machines via a bootable USB Drive. (Additional BitLocker Key Modification)

The obvious logistical problem in this work from home world is how do we get a qualified person in front of the PC to perform the corrective action?

Companies far and wide are scrambling to do just that.

QA Sucks …

This shows how large of a market share, both Microsoft and Crowdstrike command, and that is the problem.
Crowdstrike has become a single point of failure for the economy, capable of quickly degrading all services that it touches.

The balance between being agile to identify and close potential cyber attack vectors and quality control is tough for any organization. Yet that is what is required, and perhaps what customers should demand.

“This incident appears to be a severe failure of quality control, not a malicious act,” cybersecurity strategist and former FBI counterintelligence official Eric O’Neill said of Friday’s paralysis.

Quality Assurance isn’t sexy, you can’t sell QA. Its very purpose is to slow down, create repeatable testing procedures which should ensure that bad code doesn’t make it out the door. It is a cost center, and it is one of the first areas that are examined when cuts need to be made.

In 2023 an employee reported round of layoffs, of 200 people at crowdstrike with a RTO (Return to Office) policy being cited as the reason. This included engineers, devs and QA testers.

A Glassdoor post from September 2023 sums up the work culture as:

The focus on “world domination” has created a noticeable difference in morale and business operations. People and process first culture has taken a backseat to being the biggest, fastest and strongest security provider. More burnout, more patchy solutions to quickly solve problems that could have been superbly implemented with proper communication and expectations set on timing.

and a follow up post on January 2024 has listed the following reasons for missteps the company was suffering from.

Absolutely toxic senior leadership; no emotional IQ, no communication, immature “leadership”

  • *The culture can best be described as: old boys club, bro, and/or a fraternity
  • *Re-org after re-org with no clear direction beyond the bottom line
  • *CAO (Counter Adversary Operations) makes absolutely no sense and is confusing internally and externally —
  • *Rolling layoffs with zero transparency and blatant lies (lies about why people were laid off, firings disguised as layoffs, false promises that “this is the last one”)
  • these layoffs deemed critical functions “redundant,” which led to critical work being piled on top of burned out, understaffed, and underpaid folks left behind

These and other posts paint a picture of a company that shifted the responsibility of QA from a dedicated team to the engineers writing the code. With inadequate testing of the full package before deploying to the world. Which leads to the issue we all experienced on Friday.

Hindsight is 20/20, and this is just my opinion, but all the signs show that the Leadership lost sight of its purpose, it grew too fast and there wasn’t the experience at the C-Suite required to see the cliff it was heading for. This is a management problem that goes to the core of the business and its culture.

They slashed its QA safety net, they shuffled the deck chairs on the ship enough that the employees felt lost and without clear direction.

We can’t and shouldn’t be trusting any third party company. This is gut check time. A 3 billion dollar (2023 revenue) company took shortcuts to save 50 cents, and the impact is still being assessed. It’s time that some safe guards be put in place. As everyone who uses this software should be looking for more control over when and how these updates are deployed.

Using automated processes to push these updates to critical systems needs to be re-evaluated, and those impacted should be looking at performing its own Quality Assurance before deploying these updates to their production environments.

Mistakes were made …

Yet as employees stress about the layoffs that will surely come, lets not forget that CEO George Kurtz and his 46 Million dollar salary package (a 237:1 Ratio when compared to the Median Employee Pay) created and promoted this frat bro culture and the stock holders should take a look at the leadership that was responsible for the decisions that lowered the stock price and work to restructure the company that can better manage the responsibility it finds itself now holding.

As its stock prices decline, and the lawsuits pile up, Crowdstrike has proven it is too big to fail, and that means it is very likely that the tax payers will bear the burden for this failure.

Coffee cup runneth dry….

I’m out of coffee, and it’s time for some more.

Next week will be interesting and maybe we will hear more about Crowdstrike in the coming days.

Happy Sunday!